I’m new to blogging.
When I started my blog I thought of it as a place to:
- exercise my creativity through writing
- process thoughts and feelings (possibly vent?)
- bring awareness to the world of infertility (because that was the painful place I found myself in)
What I found when I started writing was that I had some
insecurities.
- I want what I post to be in the best finished form possible – in short, I want it to be perfect.
- I don’t want what I post to offend anyone as I process…, so I wait to post until I have it all “figured out” – in short, even though I most definitely DO NOT have it all together, I feel the need to portray that image.
- I don’t want anyone to think less of me because of what I write – in short, I want to be seen as perfect.
I find blogging interesting. We write things that others
will see, often about things that we find important. Sometimes about things
that we might not have a casual conversation with girlfriends about, but
complete strangers can read those thoughts when we put them out there.
Part of me wants to just put all my questions about life,
marriage, life, parenting, life, work, life, etc. out there and wonder if
anyone else feels like me. But then I find myself scared that no one else does.
When I think about writing about certain things, I hear this voice saying “no
one wants to read about that.”
And then I wonder what I really have to offer to the world
of blogging. Maybe nothing. There are so many other people out there blogging
about probably all the same things that are on my mind. Why add mine to the
multitude?
Good question. Why?
...Because I need to get out of my head.
...Because
I need to process creatively and see my thoughts in writing.
Maybe it’s not
about other people reading it as much as it is about me writing it (though the
thought of other people reading does influence how I write). I’m not sure that I
want lots of followers – because I’m not sure I have anything that insightful
to say… But, I guess, I’m just stepping forward... and we'll see where it leads.
